Issue #131 | August 14, 2026 | Previous issues​

Hey Reader,

Are you the type to 'keep score'?

I used to be that person, and I still find myself fighting that tendency from time to time.

I come from one of those families that would take the shirts off our backs for someone in need.

Isn't it only fair to expect the same treatment?

You know, reciprocity?

I do you a favor, and then when I'm in need, you return it.

Now the score is even.

Except, if you've lived life long enough, you know it doesn't work that way.

You listen to someone talk through a crisis for two hours, but when you need to talk, they suddenly have somewhere to be.

You rearrange your schedule to help someone in a pinch, but when you’re the one in a pinch, they can’t possibly rearrange theirs.

You drive them to the airport at some ungodly hour, but when your car breaks down, they’re mysteriously unavailable.

You show up for the hard things—the things requiring more effort than sending a heart emoji—but when life knocks you flat, all you hear are crickets.

Not that I’ve ever noticed such things.

Ahem.

When we keep score, every kindness becomes another entry in an invisible ledger.

One favor given. One favor owed.

We may not even realize we’re keeping a ledger until the other person fails to settle the account.

Then resentment creeps in.

That’s when we discover we may not have been giving a gift after all.

We were extending credit.

Kindness freely offered is a gift.

Kindness with an unspoken price is no longer a gift. It becomes currency.

That raises an uncomfortable question:

Are we attempting to purchase affection, loyalty, agreement, forgiveness, friendship, or a favor in return?

And if we offered kindness mainly to get that return, was it ever truly kindness?

But am I saying reciprocity doesn’t matter?

I don’t think so.

Reciprocity is not repayment.

It doesn’t mean you must do for me exactly what I did for you.

Care can be returned through listening. Remembering. Encouragement. Practical help. Making someone laugh. Showing up when showing up is inconvenient.

Reciprocity is simply evidence that care moves in both directions.

Of course, there will be seasons when it doesn’t.

Someone may be sick, grieving, depleted, or holding life together with duct tape and prayer.

Love makes room for those seasons.

But a difficult season is different from a permanent arrangement in which one person is always pouring and the other is always holding out a cup.

Giving without demanding repayment does not mean giving endlessly to people who only take.

A gift does not create a debt. But a relationship does create a pattern.

We are allowed to ask:

Does this relationship make room for me—or primarily for what I provide?

Does the other person respond to my needs or offer care when they see me struggling?

The answers aren’t necessarily accusations.

They are information.

Sometimes the information tells us that someone loves us but expresses it differently.

Sometimes it tells us they are doing the best they can with very little to give.

And sometimes it tells us that we’ve been investing in a relationship that exists primarily because we keep feeding it.

We don’t have to punish anyone for that.

We don’t have to slam a door or compose a twelve-paragraph text detailing every offense committed since 1997.

We can simply adjust our investment.

That isn’t necessarily punishment.

It may be discernment.

But before deciding everyone around us is an ungrateful parasite, we might want to do a quick self-check:

Am I giving freely, or quietly hoping my kindness will earn me something?

And then:

Have I become so accustomed to someone’s generosity that I barely notice it?

When was the last time I considered what they might need?

Not because I owe them.

Because I care about them.

Kindness is not currency.

It should not be used to purchase love, loyalty, or favors.

But giving freely does not require us to ignore what a relationship repeatedly reveals.

When care consistently travels in only one direction, that is information.

And we are allowed to pay attention.

With love,

Anna

P.S. What does reciprocity look like to you? Hit reply and tell me. I promise I won’t keep score. 😉

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